If you've ever in your life met me, then you know one thing for sure: I am (was?) a huge, huge drinker.\nREAD ALSO: This Montreal Shop Serves"Cookie Dough" Ice Cream Sandwiches And They Look Freaking Legit\nI've been drinking pretty heavily at least since I was 16 years old, so booze has been super present in my life for at least a decade.\nvia @ciaomiranda12\nAnd when I say "drinking pretty heavily", I really, legit mean it.\nSo, you know how some people work all week and then just go out on a Friday or Saturday night? Well, that was never me.\nI'd work (or go to class) every day of the week, and go out drinking every night. When I was younger, I used to go hardcore clubbing at least once a week, too.\nvia @ciaomiranda12\nAnd I used to drink, and drink, and drink.\nCasual, weekly outings usually meant at least a couple of shots of hard liquor; weekend outings meant, of course, more than 10 shots, plus some cocktails; and during the workday, I'd have a few glasses of wine and beer, just because.\nTL;DR: I couldn't live my life without being at least a little tipsy or buzzed. Which was fine for a while, until I decided it wasn't.\nvia @ciaomiranda12\nHonestly, I never considered myself actually addicted to alcohol, but now I look back and I see that I was relying on it for a lot of things.\nI've never been super comfortable in highly social situations, and I've always been more than a little anxious - so any time I'd start feeling uncomfortable (which is always), I'd drink.\nvia @ciaomiranda12\nIt would calm me down and it was great... but then I realized that it was actually kind of sad. I can't ever learn to work on myself if I'm always just drinking away my issues, right?\nPlus, I'm almost 26. Hangovers hurt a lot more now than they ever did when I was 16.\nvia @ciaomiranda12\nSo I vowed to kick my alcohol dependency, and be the kind of person I wanted to be naturally. Without needing to get drunk AF first.\nAfter a few failed attempts, I had my last binge drinking episode on St. Patrick's Day of this year. Since then, I haven't actually consumed a drop of alcohol.\nvia @ciaomiranda12\nIt was hard at first, mainly because being the drunken hoe was so ingrianed in my identity that I had no idea who I was without a wine glass in my hand.\nHonestly, it's still something I'm figuring out. Right now, I have no drive or motivatrion to drink again, and I want to be a little more secure in myself before I do.\nPersonally, I feel like I will eventually get to the point where I can control my drinking and happily have an alcohol-fuelled night out with my friends. But I don't think I'm ready for it just yet.\nvia @ciaomiranda12\nI'm actually enjoying getting to know myself without a tequila shield, and I'm actually enjoying not drinking.\nI'm saving a whole lot of money, plus I have time for things that'll actually improve my life.\nvia @ciaomiranda12\nI still kind of feel a bit brain foggy, if I'm being honest - but I can think a whole lot clearer now; and not getting hangovers is kind of the best thing to ever happen to me, no lie.